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This is not a medical advice. And if you experience burnouts returning frequently, that‘s what you might wanna get.

However, I noticed, when I started to work in a regular job, I was able to work all year without the need of taking time off. I was used to it, since I was self-employed before that. After the first few years at this new job I started to feel the same things you‘ve felt (but maybe not to the extremes you‘ve described). So (with the lovely advice from my SO), I decided to take all my accumulated time off and we went to a place, where I really was able to turn off my phone, let my mind wander and together we explored new things. After 3 weeks, I felt not burned out anymore and was able to perform.

This lasted for about 5 months after which I took another vacation. Now I try to take at least a week off each quarter. With a longer vacation once a year if time allows.

So, what I want to say: take time off where you can stop thinking about your occupation (and anything like social media or emails). Try to learn something new (if you want to be productive) that isn‘t tied to goals or deadlines (and don‘t try to make this new hobby a profession) or you will find yourself in a worse cycle with two jobs. Even better, immerse yourself in something unproductive.

It kind of sounds like you’re describing bipolar disorder. These cycles of up and down.

You said this low period always happens right after your most creative periods. Depressive cycles typically last longer than the manic phase which is what you described.

Not a doctor obviously but I lived with it undiagnosed for a very long time. Maybe read up on it and see if it fits your experience.

Whatever it is I hope you find some relief.

1. Meet a therapist
2. See my post YSK: Understanding the work burnout experience, treatment and preventions

As currently there is no one perfect solution, it's time for you to learn what solution will suit you.

Good luck mate

This is only a small advice. Take it or leave it, of course. Burn out is real, if that's what your are experiencing. And it effects all parts of your life. For example, if you have burn out because of work, your hobbies suffer because you're just burnt out.

Be kind to yourself. Life, or burn out, only gets even worse when you get mad at yourself for not doing something or not being productive. It's okay to be tired. It sucks when life takes away from your hobbies and the things you love. But don't beat yourself up! It's okay to do nothing even when it doesn't feel okay.

You say this keeps happening. Go and talk to your doctor. Maybe there is something wrong with your thyroid. Or some other imbalance with hormones/chemistry in your body. Or something with the mind. I'm not a doctor but i'd say it's worth checking if it's some physical problem. And if it's some mental problem, it also helps getting help (or at least a diagnosis) sooner than later.

You’re doing too much cognitive work. This is why I had to leave software development: it was just too much load on my brain to he sustainable.

Our economy isn’t set up for you to work 20% of the time, unless you can make a product and sell it, or get super high rates for when you are working.

If you can’t maintain output for about 60% of the time, you’re doing a job that you can’t do.

Burnout is something a lot more serious. It usually takes many months to years to recover, if you recover at all.

Not to diagnose you, but have you considered that this may actually be due to bipolar disorder? Burnout and depression share a lot of symptoms, after all.

That's really bad ratios but I can only give you the generic advice, I doubt it's enough but maybe it'll help a bit.

Get good long sleep, cool room, blacked out room. People say 8 hrs but try 9-10. Dim lights in a warm color range 1-2 hrs before bed.

Try to eliminate caffeine. If it can't, no caffeine after noon.

Eat chicken liver. Lots of vitamins.

You can try creatine if you want.

Lol I read "bad Cyrillic burnout."

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This might not apply to you but its worth a shot.

IMO we as humans were never supposed to get immense motivation BEFORE an action. Its supposed to come after you see the results of your work.

That said, you keep coming up with excuses you cant create:

1. Too tired
2. Ideas aren't good enough
3. Not in the right mindset
4. What I make won't look good anyways

You need to alter your perspective because that is what is holding you back. You could draw despite all of those reasons above, but you CHOOSE not to.

I don't want to make it like a pull yourself up by your boot straps thing, I only say its a choice you are making so hopefully you will realize that you could just choose to draw.

Even if what you create is devoid of creativity, is unoriginal, does not represent you, and just plain looks bad, its still better to have created something and throw it away than to have created nothing.

Also any strong emotion can result in beautiful art, whether its a positive emotion or negative. Most people just want to see emotional honesty in art. Nothing wrong with how you feel, other than you preferring feeling a different way at the time.